2017, 旺桃花是吗?

到了2017年，面书上有很多那些说说你的2017的。不知到是巧合还是什么的，答案都蛮一致的。先是 

后来是

再来是

到了这，我家已经觉得好好笑。之后我又再玩就拿到这

我告诉自己这些已足以让我笑翻肚子了。真的没想到接下来的也是那样

所以面书上想告诉我2017我是旺桃花吗？哈哈

Moonlight is the new Love!

After the end of Descendants of the Sun, there come Love in the Moonlight (or can also be known as Moonlight Drawn by Clouds). Park Bo Gum fever is here to continue the Song Joong Ki fever. Of course, both are equally heart capturing.

The first drama that I watched Park Bo Gum was Nodame Cantabille. I knew he is such a sweetheart from then. Back to moonlight, watching the drama is such a pleasant to my eyes. Pretty boys and lovely girls, lovely dovey moments, heart-melting eyes, and everything good. Words aren't enough to describe. B1A4's Jinyoung is there too. How sweet!

Look at those eyes!!!

P/S : All the pictures here are from KBS World Facebook page.

It's A Korean Thing

 

2014 is coming to an end soon and everyone, I guess is anticipating this month of December mostly because of Christmas. I bet couples already have a list of what to do, where to go, what to eat, what present to be given to their other half. I am not sure whether you have already know, but there is an additional day where Korean couples celebrate in Korea.

Koreans have a specific day every month to do a specific thing. It is a mid-month celebrations for couples in Korea. To be specific, the said day is the 14th of every month. I don't actually know this beforehand until I saw a post on Allkpop. You may check the post and its explanation of each specific day here.

For easy referencing, I have list down the mid-month celebration as follow:

Jan 14th - Diary Day
Feb 14th - Valentine's Day
Mac 14th - White Day
Apr 14th - Black Day
May 14th - Yellow Day / Rose Day
June 14th - Kiss Day
July 14th - Silver Day
Aug 14th - Green Day
Sept 14th - Photo Day/ Music Day
Oct 14th - Wine Day
Nov 14th- Movie Night
Dec 14th - Hug Day

I am not sure about what you think on this mid-month celebrations practiced by Koreans but I find it quite pretty and it isn't a bad idea to celebrate it. And actually Korea couple don't just show their affection on these particular days, they actually show it all-year-long. Koreans couples, be it man or woman, they are not afraid or shame in showing off their affections publicly. You may easily spot couples with matching clothes, shoes, bags or whatever you can mention. For singles, you need to be mentally strong enough to walk on the streets in Korea or else you will be defeated by endless of jealousy and envious, and mostly loneliness.

Since it's December now, let's talk a bit on it. Actually I have never anticipated the coming of December since 5 years ago. I know that most people anticipated December because of Christmas. I once thought December will be a month I anticipated much beside January (my birth month). However, everything changed 5 years ago, which was also the year where I anticipated the coming of December more than ever.

Dec 24th, Christmas Eve, an excuse where people use to gather around for celebration. Be it with your family, friends or special half. 5 years ago, that day used to be meaningful for me because it will be a day where I not only get to exchange present with other, it was also a day where I will celebrate the birth day of someone whom I used to love so dearly. Dec 24th is my ex's birthday. While I was still scratching my head to come out with a special events to make him happy, on this very Dec 14th he decided to put an end towards our relationship.

5 years had passed, but this Dec 14th is still clearly embedded in my mind and heart. NO, it's not that I am still clinging to him, I have gotten over him. It's just that that particular day, the memory I had is way too difficult to just let it go. It all started 5 years ago where I, subconsciously will be emo during every December. To be honest, there was a time where I hated December very much.

For this fifth year, when I get to know that Dec 14th is a Hug Day (it's freezing winter in Korea, so you hug people to give warm) I could imagine how lonely it is for singles on this particular day. No no, I am not being too emo this time (though it is better to have someone hugging you). After my long time from Korea this autumn, something has change my mindset. Being singles isn't bad after all. I get to know people regardless of sex, need to worry if I try to pick on any Korean guy or adoring any guy. Or another word, I do not have to worry, or I should say I have the right to flirt with any guy I am interested in (of course if only the guy is single too).

Though I would love to date someone now, I think it is better for me to stay being single for the moment. For those who are currently in a relationship, may you have a good Christmas with your loved ones and do not forget to give him/her a hug on Dec 14th. For those who are single like me, may you get to find someone special this Christmas. Happy December peeps!

p/s : Yes, I went to Korea this autumn and I had an amazing Korea tour (as you may see from the picture above where I took a picture with a quite ok Korean guy). I am not sure when I will finish blog about it and I will try to make time for it. Till then, see ya! n_n

我很坏吗？

今年将会是我单身的第五年了。真的不知不觉就这样就五年了。时间真的过的很快。有时我都在问自己为何还是单身，但就是得不到答案。自然而然，我也放弃了去追问，让一切顺其自然。也因让一让，就来到了第五年了。

现在的我已开始工作了，身边的同事都是已有伴侣的。我并不是想说在公司里没希望因为我根本没想过也根本不想在公司里跟任何一人有较亲密的接触，达到恋人的关系。虽然在一起工作可以天天见面，但这不是理想的。可以避免的话，我不想要这样。

慢慢跟同事聊天，就慢慢的发觉她们都是有男朋友的。每当一一的发现她们是在恋爱的，我都会在心里面小小声地问自己我到底怎么了。我自问我并不差，学历算不错，样貌也不算丑。但我就是孤独一人。

有位同事， 她大我一年，当然比我有工作经验。可是她对工作或者生活的思想真的有时蛮幼子。我并不是想说我很成熟，但她的那个程度真的有够令我难以接受。就比如说加班到7点才回，她就一副丑脸那样，还跟我说已经有两天她10点晚上才吃晚餐。小姐，本公主我差不多每晚八点半才离公司，每晚十点才吃晚餐。你那两天算什么？你在这行做了两年有多，难道你不比我根了解这一行的工作时间吗？我都还没怨你怨什么？

最令我生气的就是她这条件的女生都能找到男朋友而我找不到。我知道有这样的想法的我真的很坏，可是我真的控制不了也理解不到。是我本人太有问题还是我的个性太过自我？我真的想不通咯。

有人说我眼角高，但我是吗?我并没有说我要一个怎样怎样或者有什么条件的男朋友。我只想找一个能让我动心，对我真心的人，难道这样就是眼角高吗？谈恋爱不就是要找一个真心对待自己的人吗？如果他不能让你动心，你又如何会爱上他呢？难道我这道理是无理取闹吗？

请告诉我，我到底有那里不好，不好到没人要。

原来是脆弱的

闭上眼睛，用心去聆听您的心声

已是十一月了。两个月后我们就要迎接2014年的到来。回想起，时间真的过的很快。一眨眼就快过完了我二十二岁这一年。虽然还没有真真的过完2013年，但我很想写一下我在今年的心情是怎样的。

在2013年里是我开始人生第二阶段的开始。我在年头就把我的学生身份画个据点。在LengLeng帮我庆祝22岁生日那天，我就感觉到我已搭入了人生第二个阶段。我很清楚明白我是不会再回到学生生活了。原因是我已经放弃了念书的年头。虽然我很想念学校生活，但人总要接受事实。已经过了19年念书的生活，是时候出来赚钱养家了。

今年我生日时收到的祝福都是要我快快找个男朋友。哈哈，我的朋友们都很可爱。我知道她们都很关心我。前阵子跟许久没见面的lengleng聚会，突然间谈到了结婚。Ann Ann就说了理想结婚年龄是28岁。这也是我的理想结婚年龄，我也说了最早我可以接受是26岁。Ann Ann点下头表示她也同意我。然而她突然间说 “哎呀，很快就到了，你要快点找男朋友了，给你一年，一年好像不够，给你两年的时间快点去找男朋友”。听到这一番话，我真的很开心有怎么关心我的好友。

说真的，我已单身快4年了。心里面已经空虚到不懂怎么形容了。想要恋爱的感觉早已出现，可是就是爱不下去。近期来每当我一个人在车里回家的途中听到了情歌，我都有很想落泪的感觉。也许是因为接近年尾的关系，我变得特别的脆弱。十二月对我来说是没什么值得期待的。几个月前，我翻看了我的部落各，看回了一片文章我的泪忍不住地落下来了。之后偶尔我也会看回那片文章。

我对那份感情早已放下。但我现在发觉原来我未能放下的那时受到的伤害。我没办法不去想那时的我心里面是有多难受。我已经很努力的去克服这个痛苦。 但我真的做不到。倔强性格的我，心里面难受到快崩溃了却不允许在别人面前流泪的我，真的无法呼吸了和别人说我还难过，他们只会觉得是我放不下那段感情。感情和伤害是两回事。还难过不一定是代表还爱着对方。

你可以问我为何四年了还放不下，我可以回你有些事就算再多久，就算你是铁人也未必能做得到。很想把这份写到好好的，可是我已写不下去了。心里面的伤，用字体是表达不到的。四年了还放不下，我也很恨我自己。我不期待十二月，也不期待圣诞节。

爱情这件事

爱情这件事可以很简单很开心，也可以很复杂很难过。简单开心就是我爱你你爱我，复杂难过就是有一方不爱不再爱甚至变成恨。爱情这件事并没有对与错。也不因该有后悔这两个字。我相信每个人当他们开始一段感情时，都是抱着幸福美满的心态。因为对彼此有爱有感觉才会决定要在一次。所以说为何要爱，爱了过后又要后悔和恨呢？

我经历过三段恋情。当然有快乐和幸福，还有伤心痛苦和悲哀。虽然如此，我并没有后悔过开始任何一段恋情。看过我的部落各的朋友们都因该知道我第三段恋情是令我最难忘也最难过的一个。最难忘因为我很爱他，最难过也是因为我很爱他。我难过不是因为我很他，我没恨过他。只不过我还未能完完全全的放下分手时带给我的伤害。那个感觉不是简单的能用任何字体来解释。有时候想起那时发生过的事，我还会难过。

我觉得如果要“后悔”这两个字放在爱情里的话，因该是用在后悔没有好好的爱惜一个人。人人都会说要珍惜眼前人，但我们偏偏就是不会爱惜眼前人。就这样我们不断地在爱情里找到后悔这两个字。我也有后悔过为何当初不好好珍惜某个人。但我很幸运呢！因为昨日的后悔我能在近日补偿。

我知道不是每个人都像我能够补偿昨日的后悔。我也知道不是每个人都认同我所讲的。但我很清楚明白若我们的人生里有太多的后悔的话，哪会有空间剩给快乐呢？

但我现在有面对着一个问题。我的确很渴望开始新的恋情，一直等待一个人的人出现。不知道是否一个人太久了，我的心仿佛关闭了。好像完全不会动心了。朋友问我难道我没有对任何一个人动心或者有一点点感觉嚒。我真的没有，一点点也没有。有人告许我不要急着要恋爱，还年轻。我知道，我真的知道。只不过一个人太久了，心里面会空虚。太空虚的话，我会很难过。

无论怎样,结论是爱情这件事要自己体验过才能明白我所讲的。而且每个人对爱情都有不一样的概念。我们永远无法让别人认同我们，也无法解开爱情是什么。记得只要用心去爱，就会幸福了。

告白。爱情。友情。陌生人

已近很久没更新部洛格了。这一切都是因为我开始工作了。本来很想在这里告许大家我终于找到我的第一份工作，想跟大家分享我的工作是干什么的。还没来得及写，我就要跟大家说，我要辞职了。我会做到这个月尾就停了。我只能说这份工并不是我当初想象中那么的好。我不想多讲，因为我做到不愉快。

讲到‘告白’，我想我上一次的告白大约4年前。也代表我原来已经单身了约4年。在这4年里我改变了许多。我对爱情的看法改变了。我以往的恋情都是我先主动的，可是每个都不是我希望的长远。当我决定了不要再主动，却一个机会出现了，有人鼓励我要主动，也因为我不想错过一个我珍惜的人，我就告白了。有看我部落各的读者都因该知道我的那段恋情都是分手收场。

经过那段恋情后，我不再决定到底我要主动还是被动了。我只希望我不会错过好的缘分罢了。当然我也很希望我不需要主动，希望有人跟我告白。

近来我一直跟身边的朋友说我很想恋爱，很想找个男朋友。有些朋友问我 “你不要找男朋友嚒？", "你几时要找男朋友？”，“你快点找男朋友啦”。也有人跟我说 “谈恋爱是不好的”，“找男朋友只会让自己难过”，“你还年轻，不用急”。对，22岁的我的确是还年轻，可是对一个已经4年在爱情上空虚的我，的确觉得很难受。可是因为上一段恋情，让我仿佛对男生产生了一个可疑的心。我口里是说要恋爱，可是心里却关起来了。也许我还是会怕再一次被狠狠的伤害，所以就把心锁了。我也很害怕，一个人久了，要爱一个人也难。做人真难啊~

提到友情，我觉得千万不要在友情上产生了爱情。无论是怎样的友情都好，保持友情就好。提到友情，我发觉到我有个朋友好像跟以往不一样了。我觉得我那个朋友变得不想以前的她。也许她的生活方式不一样了，但我希望我们还能保持我们的友情，永久不变。我不希望我们会慢慢变得像陌生人。

陌生人，我希望有一天一个陌生人能走近我的世界里，然后我们变得不陌生。我还在等待一个陌生人的出现。我不知道他几时会出现，可能明天，可能下个月，可能一年后，也可能永不出现。看见别那些情侣甜蜜蜜的合照，我会羡慕。我很希望照片里的女主角是我。请问男主角，你几时会出现呢？

p/s : 我有个小小的要求，我希望那个男主角能体谅我对韩流和韩星还有对Hello Kitty的热爱。
n_n

Long Awaited TVXQ Catch Me Live in KL

It has been such a long time that I finally attended a concert by my favourite act. For those who know me, you should have know that I am a hug fan of TVXQ. I am proud to be known as cassiopeia. But one things that kept make me sad was that I did not event attend their concert once though they were here twice for concert. Many people asked me why I never attend their concert as it was so awesome. I could answer you I wanted to attend desperately. However, I am not born in a family that could understand why I am willing to spend tens of ringgit for a cd album where I could get a pirated one at RM5 each, not to mention about spending hundreds of ringgit for a concert where I gained nothing. And at that time, TVXQ were here for concert when I was still in secondary school. I don't own that much of money and also transport for the concert. What I could do was waiting for news coverage on TV and newspaper for the concert.

My mum once scolded me for non-stop buying TVXQ albums. It was when I showed her a picture of the album and told her I wanna buy that. I was 16 at that time, and each time before I buy something "expensive" (by expensive I mean it's over RM50), I will tell her first as if I am getting her permission to do so. Well, you can say I am being rebellious because despite of my mum's scolding, I will still proceed in buying TVXQ albums. As time goes by, my mum already accepted that I will buy TVXQ original album as she sometimes accompany me going to Speedy or Rock Corner to have a look at those CD albums. I was once hesitating whether I should buy the Asia version or the imported from Korea version of TVXQ 1st album as the Korea version was double the price of the Asia one. Surprisingly, my mum said it's up to me to buying which one instead of asking me to buy the cheaper one. Because of this, I realized that my mum has already accepted the fact that I won't buy non-original TVXQ albums. My mum does know that I buy lots of TVXQ album, but she didn't know exactly how many I own and how much I had spent on it. If she know I bought that TONE album for RM90, I will be dead meat.

Back to story, finally TVXQ is coming for a concert after 6 years. I finally have the chance to attend it and I have the transport to the venue. I knew I will get scolded so I bought the ticket without telling any of my family members. Until it was like 5 days before the D-day, I only told them I am attending the concert. And of course I got a little lecture even though I am going for the cheapest one. Imagine if I go for rock zone!!! But then, for sure my mum know I like TVXQ very much. Although she gave me lecture on it, I knew that she cares for me very much, she just doesn't want me to spend money recklessly. She actually worried that I will get lost on the way to Shah Alam. Oh well, for TVXQ, I gotta go no matter what.

The concert started around 6.10pm. And TVXQ came on stage in white suit. Yes! Real prince charming in white appeared on stage. Oh ya, before that, I must explain that I will be talking more on U-know Yunho as he is my fav. Max Changmin is awesome too, it's just that I can't take my eyes off Yunho. I have always wanted to watch their performances of Rising Sun, Mirotic and O Jung Ban Hap without JYJ. Please don't get misunderstand, I just wanted to know how they can perform the whole song with just the two of them. And yes, TVXQ did not disappoint anyone while performing those songs. It is just so awesome. The stage still look so small to me even though there were just two of them. 

During their solo part, Yunho performed Honey Funny Bunny. And I never expected he could do those kind of dance. OMG, it's just so smexy!! I was shouting like crazy when he did that! OMG!! I became crazy again when the screen showing VCR of him giving Sulli a peck at the cheek while Before U Go was playing as the background music. Actually I wanted to watch the whole performance of Before U Go, but the performance was just so little for that song. That was the only part where I am a little bit disappointed because I love that songs very much. 

Concert won't be perfect without some cute props. Mini planes were brought on stage and TVXQ took a ride on it. The plane was supposed to bring TVXQ to the front stage and landed there, but the one that Yunho rode on experienced some technical problem and it was hanging on air while it was landing. And yes, this kid decided to jump down from the plane as it wasn't going to land at all. I was worried like mad when he jumped down. All the fans including me kept chanting "andwae" but he still jump down. Luckily he was not hurt at all.

There was a time where Yunho was running like a kid on stage. And at that moment, something just popped up in my mind. Where else can I find a more perfect man other than Yunho? He is charismatic, he has the charm to melt everyone's heart, he can be strict and fierce and yet he is cute. I love his solo dancing part where he did handstand. I knew he will do that but I din expect that he did that in that white suit. Oh my prince charming!!! By the way, Changmin is just so cute! He may be a grown up now, but deep in cassies' hearts, he is still the maknae!! Haha.

I was a bit emotional when they sang medley of their old songs and when the VCR playing footage of their old days. My friend beside me dropped her tears during that VCR. That VCR could be longer if it weren't for the split (Homin and JYJ). I hold back my tears because I don't want to be ugly duckling during the concert. I think that I should be happy as I finally attended their concert!! n_n

Fan chant for Mirotic was awesome!!! I am proud to be part of that. And I am also proud to be part of the red ocean. It was amazing! The hand held banner is meaningful! I am glad that I do not miss this concert. I fell more in love with TVXQ and Yunho now. 

WE ARE T!!!

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On another, I found an iPhone when I was about to leave the stadium. Oh well, to be exact, it was the cassies in front of me found that phone and asked whether it belongs to me or my friends. It wasn't ours and that cassies kept on asking what to do with that phone. My friends were rushing to airport and I know that cassies was also rushing. So I decided to take care of that phone and I managed to return that phone to its owner. Luckily the phone owner didn't lock her phone with password, or else I couldn't contact her on the spot. Haha, be more careful next time ya, the iPhone owner!! n_n

For all the pictures here, credit on the picture itself ya!

♥ Oh My Heartthrobs

Got this picture from Google

Please don't be surprised with the title of this post! I have yet to find another half of me, so I am still single and available. I am going to talk bout a new heartthrob of mine, and yes it refers to Korean boy band, Teen Top! All of them are my 동생!! I somehow feel so old.

Teen Top, a boyband comprises of six members which are C.A.P, Chunji, Niel, L.Joe, Ricky and Changjo. They debuted in July 2010 but they only come to my attention when they released the song No More Perfume On You (향수 뿌리지마) on 2011. I have always remember and recognize Niel because he sings the most and has an unique voice.

Then, I enjoyed listening to their new songs like Crazy (미치겠어) and Be My Girl (나랑 사귈래?). And yes, of course I can now remember all their names and recognize all their faces, just that Niel and Chunji catch my attention more. Why? All I can say is Niel and Chunji sing a lot and their screen time is longer than other members.

Now in 2013, they finally released their first regular album and their main song is Miss Right (긴 생머리 그녀). THIS SONG IS VERY ADDICTIVE!! The Korean song name means that girl with long and straight hair. I was once told by my Korean friends that most Korean guys love girl with long and straight hair (That's me!!). So this song is about that girl with long and straight hair. LOL...seems like literally translation.

Upon watching this MV, I knew that I am gonna fall deeply in love with these boys. They are so funny, funky, charming, charismatic and handsome in the MV. And yes, now L.Joe catches my attention with his bleached pink hair. The more I watched the MV, the more I love him. I love the part where he rap and deeply in love with his style in the locker room version.

With just a long sleeve black tee and a orange jumpsuit plus an orange bandana, L.Joe is just so stylish. In Chinese, we call it 型!!! I was so into them that I downloaded three different videos of them for this song. I just can't keep my eyes off on L.Joe. If I were able to date with a guy like L.Joe, how happy will I be? Too bad, he is younger than I am. Because of him, I am considering whether I should accept a guy younger than me as my boyfie. Should I? I have seen a guy in real life where he has the ability to be that cool. But then, he is younger than me as well. 

Anyway, please give much LOVE to Teen Top!! And don't steal L.Joe from me just because you fall in love with him too after watching the MV. "♥ Oh My Heartthrobs" will be a continuing series of posts on guys that make me fall in love with them. I will be blogging on other guys next time. Stay tune to see which guys steal my heart!! 

Until then, see ya! ♥

He is the Man, Lee Hanulyi

He is my man, Hanulyi

     After covering Red Soul on 13th, I am tempted to cover their showcase for the second day. This time, the showcase is at Bentley Music. To be honest, I am really grateful to cover the events on both day. Now I am able to drink to Giza Mall and Curve there all by myself. Back to the event, I think this is the sweetest moment of my life, can say that it makes my dream comes true.

     When I reach the venue, ME told me that the concept for today is 'Intimate' so there won't be any registration for media, nor special place. We can just sit anywhere to enjoy the music and get closer to Red Soul. Oh well, Migo and I sat at the front row (again n_n) and it's really really close to the stage. We know we couldn't take any nice pictures cause of the angle but we are reluctant to move to the back cause too many people already waiting there.

     So the show started and I am still sitting at the front row. I am so close to them and can see them very very clearly! At this moment, I am already very addicted to them. I have to admit that all of them are getting cheekier and cuter from yesterday. Hanulyi knows how to pose and catch all the cameraman's attention well. Alright, out of the 5 members, I like him the most. I ADMIT I LOVE HANDSOME GUYS. I kept on taking pictures of him and I know he realize that. And I purposely kept on taking pictures of him in hoping he will realize that I love him, LOL.

     As I mentioned earlier, my dream comes true on this day. Why? I always have this dream that a guy(whom I like) will propose to me by kneeling down and sing a song to me. This is one sweet dream which I pray hard for it to happen one day. And I guess that day has come.

     Red Soul is performing the song, Ting. In the chorus part, they will have the audience to join in and sang "부드럽게 달콤하게". They explains it means "softly" (gently) and "sweetly". While singing this song, Hanulyi certainly knows to how let the audience went shouting for him, only him. He makes a lot gestures and that makes us scream!!! During his solo part, he purposely stand one step forward to indicate it's his part. So for sure, I kept on snapping pictures of him. I know he saw me snapping pictures of him.

   You may ask how do I know. Let me explain. There is once, after I took a photo of him, from my camera screen, I saw him looking directly at my camera, as if I have direct eye contact with him. I was stunned and I put down my camera and just look at him. And so his solo "부드럽게 달콤하게" part reaches, he jumps down from the stage and stop right in front of me. At first, I thought "Yes, he comes so near so I can take a close up picture of him!!". But I never know that he will kneel right in front of me, hold my hand and serenade me with "부드럽게 달콤하게". At that moment, I can't really hear anything except the loud shouting from behind of me. I can only smile, and that's what I can do. Upon seeing this, Ki Hyun also jump down from the stage, hold my other hand and sing. I have no idea whom I should look at, but I just can't leave my eyes from Hanulyi. (Ki Hyun 오빠 , 미안해). Actually that moment only lasted a few seconds, but at the time, I feel like forever. Hanulyi ended it with a kiss on my hand. OH MY DEAR, THIS IS THE FIRST TIME A HANDSOME GUY(KOREAN SOMEMORE) KNEEL DOWN, HOLD MY HAND AND SING TO ME, AND A KISS TOO!! 

Hanulyi holds my hand, n_n

     My heart flutters because of him. Though it's a bit different from my dream, it's already a paradise for me. I  am very sure that in the future when Red Soul gets more famous, there won't be any special moment like this anymore. I have no idea what to say anymore, typing the post is like making me think of the sweet moment again and I am in cloud nine now. I just can't stop smiling. A handsome guy who is cute and can sing well, where else can I find a guy like him other than Korea? Haha...I just love Koreans so much.

     I will end this post with a video that records my sweet sweet moment. Thank Yevon for recording and uploading it. Thank you very much!! Annyeong!! n_n