Thursday, July 18, 2013
告白。爱情。友情。陌生人
已近很久没更新部洛格了。这一切都是因为我开始工作了。本来很想在这里告许大家我终于找到我的第一份工作,想跟大家分享我的工作是干什么的。还没来得及写,我就要跟大家说,我要辞职了。我会做到这个月尾就停了。我只能说这份工并不是我当初想象中那么的好。我不想多讲,因为我做到不愉快。
讲到‘告白’,我想我上一次的告白大约4年前。也代表我原来已经单身了约4年。在这4年里我改变了许多。我对爱情的看法改变了。我以往的恋情都是我先主动的,可是每个都不是我希望的长远。当我决定了不要再主动,却一个机会出现了,有人鼓励我要主动,也因为我不想错过一个我珍惜的人,我就告白了。有看我部落各的读者都因该知道我的那段恋情都是分手收场。
经过那段恋情后,我不再决定到底我要主动还是被动了。我只希望我不会错过好的缘分罢了。当然我也很希望我不需要主动,希望有人跟我告白。
近来我一直跟身边的朋友说我很想恋爱,很想找个男朋友。有些朋友问我 “你不要找男朋友嚒?", "你几时要找男朋友?”,“你快点找男朋友啦”。也有人跟我说 “谈恋爱是不好的”,“找男朋友只会让自己难过”,“你还年轻,不用急”。对,22岁的我的确是还年轻,可是对一个已经4年在爱情上空虚的我,的确觉得很难受。可是因为上一段恋情,让我仿佛对男生产生了一个可疑的心。我口里是说要恋爱,可是心里却关起来了。也许我还是会怕再一次被狠狠的伤害,所以就把心锁了。我也很害怕,一个人久了,要爱一个人也难。做人真难啊~
提到友情,我觉得千万不要在友情上产生了爱情。无论是怎样的友情都好,保持友情就好。提到友情,我发觉到我有个朋友好像跟以往不一样了。我觉得我那个朋友变得不想以前的她。也许她的生活方式不一样了,但我希望我们还能保持我们的友情,永久不变。我不希望我们会慢慢变得像陌生人。
陌生人,我希望有一天一个陌生人能走近我的世界里,然后我们变得不陌生。我还在等待一个陌生人的出现。我不知道他几时会出现,可能明天,可能下个月,可能一年后,也可能永不出现。看见别那些情侣甜蜜蜜的合照,我会羡慕。我很希望照片里的女主角是我。请问男主角,你几时会出现呢?
p/s : 我有个小小的要求,我希望那个男主角能体谅我对韩流和韩星还有对Hello Kitty的热爱。
n_n
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Long Awaited TVXQ Catch Me Live in KL
It has been such a long time that I finally attended a concert by my favourite act. For those who know me, you should have know that I am a hug fan of TVXQ. I am proud to be known as cassiopeia. But one things that kept make me sad was that I did not event attend their concert once though they were here twice for concert. Many people asked me why I never attend their concert as it was so awesome. I could answer you I wanted to attend desperately. However, I am not born in a family that could understand why I am willing to spend tens of ringgit for a cd album where I could get a pirated one at RM5 each, not to mention about spending hundreds of ringgit for a concert where I gained nothing. And at that time, TVXQ were here for concert when I was still in secondary school. I don't own that much of money and also transport for the concert. What I could do was waiting for news coverage on TV and newspaper for the concert.
My mum once scolded me for non-stop buying TVXQ albums. It was when I showed her a picture of the album and told her I wanna buy that. I was 16 at that time, and each time before I buy something "expensive" (by expensive I mean it's over RM50), I will tell her first as if I am getting her permission to do so. Well, you can say I am being rebellious because despite of my mum's scolding, I will still proceed in buying TVXQ albums. As time goes by, my mum already accepted that I will buy TVXQ original album as she sometimes accompany me going to Speedy or Rock Corner to have a look at those CD albums. I was once hesitating whether I should buy the Asia version or the imported from Korea version of TVXQ 1st album as the Korea version was double the price of the Asia one. Surprisingly, my mum said it's up to me to buying which one instead of asking me to buy the cheaper one. Because of this, I realized that my mum has already accepted the fact that I won't buy non-original TVXQ albums. My mum does know that I buy lots of TVXQ album, but she didn't know exactly how many I own and how much I had spent on it. If she know I bought that TONE album for RM90, I will be dead meat.
Back to story, finally TVXQ is coming for a concert after 6 years. I finally have the chance to attend it and I have the transport to the venue. I knew I will get scolded so I bought the ticket without telling any of my family members. Until it was like 5 days before the D-day, I only told them I am attending the concert. And of course I got a little lecture even though I am going for the cheapest one. Imagine if I go for rock zone!!! But then, for sure my mum know I like TVXQ very much. Although she gave me lecture on it, I knew that she cares for me very much, she just doesn't want me to spend money recklessly. She actually worried that I will get lost on the way to Shah Alam. Oh well, for TVXQ, I gotta go no matter what.
The concert started around 6.10pm. And TVXQ came on stage in white suit. Yes! Real prince charming in white appeared on stage. Oh ya, before that, I must explain that I will be talking more on U-know Yunho as he is my fav. Max Changmin is awesome too, it's just that I can't take my eyes off Yunho. I have always wanted to watch their performances of Rising Sun, Mirotic and O Jung Ban Hap without JYJ. Please don't get misunderstand, I just wanted to know how they can perform the whole song with just the two of them. And yes, TVXQ did not disappoint anyone while performing those songs. It is just so awesome. The stage still look so small to me even though there were just two of them.
During their solo part, Yunho performed Honey Funny Bunny. And I never expected he could do those kind of dance. OMG, it's just so smexy!! I was shouting like crazy when he did that! OMG!! I became crazy again when the screen showing VCR of him giving Sulli a peck at the cheek while Before U Go was playing as the background music. Actually I wanted to watch the whole performance of Before U Go, but the performance was just so little for that song. That was the only part where I am a little bit disappointed because I love that songs very much.
Concert won't be perfect without some cute props. Mini planes were brought on stage and TVXQ took a ride on it. The plane was supposed to bring TVXQ to the front stage and landed there, but the one that Yunho rode on experienced some technical problem and it was hanging on air while it was landing. And yes, this kid decided to jump down from the plane as it wasn't going to land at all. I was worried like mad when he jumped down. All the fans including me kept chanting "andwae" but he still jump down. Luckily he was not hurt at all.
There was a time where Yunho was running like a kid on stage. And at that moment, something just popped up in my mind. Where else can I find a more perfect man other than Yunho? He is charismatic, he has the charm to melt everyone's heart, he can be strict and fierce and yet he is cute. I love his solo dancing part where he did handstand. I knew he will do that but I din expect that he did that in that white suit. Oh my prince charming!!! By the way, Changmin is just so cute! He may be a grown up now, but deep in cassies' hearts, he is still the maknae!! Haha.
I was a bit emotional when they sang medley of their old songs and when the VCR playing footage of their old days. My friend beside me dropped her tears during that VCR. That VCR could be longer if it weren't for the split (Homin and JYJ). I hold back my tears because I don't want to be ugly duckling during the concert. I think that I should be happy as I finally attended their concert!! n_n
Fan chant for Mirotic was awesome!!! I am proud to be part of that. And I am also proud to be part of the red ocean. It was amazing! The hand held banner is meaningful! I am glad that I do not miss this concert. I fell more in love with TVXQ and Yunho now.
WE ARE T!!!
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On another, I found an iPhone when I was about to leave the stadium. Oh well, to be exact, it was the cassies in front of me found that phone and asked whether it belongs to me or my friends. It wasn't ours and that cassies kept on asking what to do with that phone. My friends were rushing to airport and I know that cassies was also rushing. So I decided to take care of that phone and I managed to return that phone to its owner. Luckily the phone owner didn't lock her phone with password, or else I couldn't contact her on the spot. Haha, be more careful next time ya, the iPhone owner!! n_n
For all the pictures here, credit on the picture itself ya!
Saturday, April 13, 2013
I ♥ Pudding.to
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| Do you? |
Just like what you saw in the picture above, I am deeply in love with Pudding.to. Pudding.to is a fun and smart photo sharing apps (disclaimed by itself). When I mention on photo sharing app, I am sure you will think of Instagram. And yes, I use both apps for sharing my photos.
When I got my smartphone around seven months ago, the first app that I downloaded was Pudding.to. Then only it comes to Instagram and Facebook. Some of you may know that answer, the first answer on why I play Pudding.to is because it's Korea-related (imma Korean freak).
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| My profile |
I treasure Pudding.to very much. I do post a lot of photos on Pudding.to but I don't just simply post like what I did on Instagram. I don't have much followers in Pudding.to but I treasure every followers and 'likes' very much. I don't follow many person too, but I love their photos to the max. And yea, most of them are Koreans.
Aside from Koreans, I love their filters very much. It is much more better than Instagram like seriously!!! And it enables me to upload photos in rectangular shapes and I can combine four photos at the same time without using other app. This is really convenient and nice.
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| NO!!!!! |
Yesterday, I received a sad news, a very very sad news. Pudding.to is closing on May 20. I feel like my heart being stabbed upon reading the news. OMG, I really can't believe that such an amazing app is closing down soon. They are closing due to their internal affairs and I am guessing some money-related problems. They know that many fans are using it and they will be providing us to download all the photos uploaded on Pudding.to.
I sincerely hope that they could work out their problems and relaunch Pudding.to soon. I am really in love with this photo sharing app. Please come back soon, okay?
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| Will be missing that notification icon. |
Friday, April 12, 2013
曾经的小幸福
已经有一段时间我没用华语来写部洛格了。因为用华语的话,我需要很长的时间来写。因为我华语不好,没上过正式的课。如果你有看过我之前的文章,你就能猜到每当我用华语就代表我有点不开心。可是这一次我并没有不开心,我只是觉得用华语比较有感觉。
我相信每个人都有自己的小幸福。每个人的小幸福的定义都不同。那我曾经的小幸福又会是什么呢?嘻嘻。
友达以上 恋人未满,这就是暧昧。不知道你们有没有看过《那些年,我们一起追的女孩》。这套戏有提到暧昧是最美好的。暧昧的日子,是令人最怀念的。因为暧昧里,所有的一切都是美好的。我也很荣欣有机会体会到不一般的暧昧。
我的第一段恋情,那个暧昧的日子因该有大约半年的时间。只可惜那段恋情一个月都不到,我和他就分了。之后我遇上了我的第二段恋情。我们暧昧的时间不多,但是我们就稳稳的在一起大约八个月。如果那时我不是因为学业,如果他当时没放我走,我想我现在还会跟他在一起呢。虽然如此,我也要感谢他的放手。如今,我和他根了解彼此,也变得无法没有彼此的好朋友。我很感谢上帝让我认识了他。我会好好珍惜我们的友情。友谊万岁!!!
讲了这么久其实我要分享的小幸福,就是我的第三段恋情啦。这个美梦发生在我中三那一年。中三那一年的某一天,我还记得recess时总觉得有个人在跟着我。他敢敢的跟我要号码。我的小幸福就在那一天开始。我就称呼他为N好了。
刚开始,我并没有答应要给他我的号码。我只是跟他说我想想先。有人想认识我,我当然开心啦,可是我也要看看他是怎样的人才能跟他做朋友啊,这叫自我保护。让我很开心也很惊讶的事发生了。早上上学时,我一踏入学校的大门,他就在那里等着我,陪我走进学堂里。放学时,他也会等我,陪我走出学校。我这样大约走了一个星期,然后我告许他我没办法给他我的号码。他当然很失望,可是之后我不记得了,我们又怎样交换号码了。
就这样,我每一天早上来上学和下午放学都有人在等我和陪我走一段不超过一分钟的路程。放学后,他会sms我或打给我聊天。不知不觉,我每天都在等他的出现。有一天,上学时我没在大门里看到他。说实话,我有点失望和好奇他为何不在。然后,他突然跑过来很紧张的样子,好像怕他错过了我那样。我的确有点小开心。这样幸福的日子一直维持到那一年的12月。这样的暧昧,你们体验过吗?我曾经把这故事告许我的一个好妹妹。她说她好羡慕我,因为从来没有人这样等过她。
那暧昧停了,我们没在一起。可是,三年后我们的暧昧又继续了。没有了你等我我等你的日子,可是我们就换了另一个方式来保持属于我们的暧昧。之后,我终于不知不觉中爱上N了。我们也开花结果了。但是,长期的暧昧换来的只是两个月的恋情。在一起两个月后,我们就个走个的。他很快就放下,我却用了三年的时间来看开那段恋情。
他在两年前就找到了新欢。我也在那一刻,放下对他的留恋。我也用了两年来看开那个伤口。三年的时间虽然有点那长,可是我好了。
N先生,我要感谢你给我一个那么难忘的暧昧经验。你那时的狠心也让我长大了。我要告许你,我并没有恨过你。真的很谢谢你给过我的一切。今天开始,我会努力的只想我们曾经度过的开心回忆而不去想伤心的痛苦。希望你能和你的新欢永远开心,幸福美满,要活的开心噢!
Monday, April 1, 2013
A copycat or a follower?
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| L.Joe is ♥ |
Oh well, the picture above has nothing to do with the title. I just in love with L.Joe so much these days so I decided to post that picture up. I just can't resist in loving him. L.Joe is just so lovely. Ok I know I am CRAZY.
Back to the topic, yesterday I was quite fed up when I saw a conversation in Facebook. All the time, I have been persuading myself that that was all coincidence and nothing more than that. But considering all the 'coincidences', it is really hard to convince myself not to believe that she is following me.
From the singer I idolized, the colour I preferred, the cartoon character that I am crazy for and the major I chose for tertiary education to the field where I wanted to work in. Can you say all these are just merely coincidence???
It is not that we grew that interest together, but all of it happened after I declared to the world that I am choosing it. AND me or the people around me and you has yet to even hear that you have interest on those things before I declared it. We don't even hear it for at least once.
I was quite angry when I saw that conversation. And luckily I got my friend to talk bout it rather than kept it in my heart. So now I am feeling better!!! But anyway, please stop following me on what I love, what mine decision is, and what I prefer!!
KTHXBAI!!!
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