Thanks for not forgetting

Two weeks ago, it wasn't just a normal Thursday for me. It was Thursday that I have been waiting for couple of weeks. It was the day Moonshot team came to Malaysia for a second time. This time it was for the launch of Microfit and Moonflash Cushion. This time around they brought the ambassador Sandara Park along to Mid Valley. But my focus here isn't for Dara (although she is truly a goddess). My focus has always been for the Moonshot Boys.

If you have read my previous post about Moonshot, you would know how different Moonshot is from other brands is their male makeup artist. Just like last time when they came for the launch, three Moonshot Boys were in town for the event. I get to know the news about Moonshot coming over way earlier than the official news release, and of course I got to know which of the Moonshot Boys were coming.

I got very excited on knowing who's coming because I know all three of them and they all know who I am too. And most importantly, one of them is someone whom I wanted to meet again desperately. Why? Because I have made promise with him to come to Korea again and meet him 2 years later when I was in Korea during autumn 2014. Yes, it was Chang Hyun.

I have been planning to go to Korea during autumn this year to fulfill my promise and also I wish to explore Korea again. I have never thought I could meet him again so much earlier. And we are meeting not in Korea, but here in Malaysia. It will be a long post if I were to spurt out the details of what happened that day. It was my longest day at Mid Valley. I was there from 11am to 11pm, all just because I want to meet the Moonshot Boys. I bumped into them coincidentally when I went to Aeon Big to buy something. They were there to buy some drinks and snacks and not forgetting beers.

I still remember how happy I were and how they reacted upon seeing him. Greeted me cheerfully and not forgetting asking me 어떡해 알았어요? It was mere luck to bump into them there and I really have no idea they were there. And they did really wonder how I knew they were they. Nevertheless, I am truly very happy that all three of them recognized me right away and greeted me happily. 

Chang Hyun was very busy the whole time during that day. Am glad that me and my friend went there earlier and got the chance to speak with them and hand over the gifts to them. The only time I got to talk to him like personally one to one was when he put on make up for me. And I will never forget how shy he was in returning the heart sign when I showed him one. 

Thanks for still remembering me despite it has been two years. I will make my way to meet you in Korea 谈this year. Let's keep in touch and help me with the autumn make up. 오빠, 나한테기다려 주세요!

No one hopes to be pathetic

For many many times, I have told myself to hold back and not to be busybody. But the soft-hearted side of me keep forgetting this and tend to keep myself busy over other people matters again. I think it is embedded within myself to help others at least in being a listener and try to give some opinions because I truly know what's the feeling like when you want to speak to someone but there isn't somebody out there.

I did the same thing again and this time I do get myself into some trouble. It seems like I have lost something but at the same time I do feel great for knowing this earlier. It is better to lose something before it is too late. I think I gained more this time rather than losing more. Nevertheless, human is still human and I am those emotional one. I can't keep myself being too optimistic for not feeling sad for what happen. It has been long since I feel so emotional again. 

Everytime when I feel sad, I have no idea why I would automatically think of the past. It has been near to 7 years, ridiculously I still feel overly sad thinking of that moment. I love myself very much that I also hate myself very much for being so pathetic. Why can't I get over that matter? Do I really need 10 years to fully let it go? Do I need to wait till I am 28? I thought my tears have dried out at that times, but why there are more? Why do I have so much tears? At times, I not sure whether I am lucky to have experience that at a young age or unlucky for having to experience that so early. It has then changed my perception over boy-girl relationship.

All the while, it will be a lie if I say do not want to be involve in a relationship. However, previous experience has stopped me from being one. I am truly afraid that similar thing will happen once again and I do not have the courage to experience it once more. I have been shutting it down for near to 7 years. I am curious when will I be able to open the door again. I just wish to stay happy.