记得要坚强

当我和Kitty接触时。。。

一路以来在别人的眼中我都是个很坚强的人。或许是因为我高调的感觉，或者是因为我在第一班科室的关系。其实啊，在我搭入中学的那一刻，我那自我保护的心变得很强烈，为了保护自己，我不知不觉地对男生产生了一个戒心。我变得很凶，特别是在男生的面前，我变得很賗，仿佛把别人看低，尤其是男生。（因在我的班里，女生中比男生多一两倍）那时的我根本不在乎别人的眼光。我觉得喜欢我的人就会喜欢我，我不需要去讨好别人。

倔强的我也不允许自己在别人面前倒下来。我不会透露我脆弱的一面。就算我再怎么难过，我都是嘻嘻哈哈的出现在别人面前。就算是好好的朋友面前，我也如此。这样的生活其实过的很累。所以我决定了要改。改了过后，我在别人的眼光的确不一样了。

在2009年开始认识的朋友们，在他们眼里的我是个乖乖的女孩。我很害羞，话不多，可爱，需要被保护的一个女孩。我把我的心没锁的那么紧。直到现在2013年，我遇见的人都觉得我的人很soft，可爱，要被保护的。我自我保护的心态的确没那么强了，甚至可以说变得脆弱了。这个改变友好的，当然也有不好之初。

自从回复单身后，我都一直很怕，很怕再一次受伤害。把一切都放在心里。偶尔会跟某某朋友讲下心事。都快4年了。因为快到12月了，不知道为什么今年的心情特别觉得难受。放工了自己一人在回家的途中，当听到悲伤情歌时，会特别的想哭。心里面觉得特别的痛。很想把那时的心情告诉人，很想大哭一场。我以为可以在她们面前讲出来，以为可以在她们的陪伴下哭出来，但原来我做不出。我才发现，虽然变脆弱了，我那自我保护的心态还是很强烈的。

就在那一天，也许是因为喝了有酒精的饮料，我把我的心生告诉了他。其实我并没有第一时间告诉他，我也是想了一下才决定要告诉他。平常来说，我是会想了很多次才会讲出来的。那时我想了一次就告诉他，

那一番话是我根本没用勇气说出来的。就算我再多么的想说出来，我还是没办法透露出来。也许是因为酒精的关系，也也许那个人是他，所以我终于讲了出来。当我说了‘我很辛苦’那一句话，我的眼泪不知不觉地流了下来。也在他面前哭了出来。我都已经忘了上一次在别人面前哭是几久了。

那短短的几分钟好像把我的心给打开了。把我那份伤感的心给些温暖。他所讲的的确很温馨。我很感动也很感谢。让我回想了他以前为我做过的事情。能够在今生认识到他，我真的真的很幸运。所以我答应了自己要好好珍惜和守护我们之间的友情。你的那句‘我认识的Callie是很坚强的’的确让我觉得好温馨，让我觉得这世界是有人关怀我的。

我会努力的找回原来的自己。我会去争取自己的快乐。也许我不是最好的，但我会努力呈现出最好的我。我还是在康复中，所以就算低落，也请允许我大哭一场。太多因为伤感的眼泪留住是不好的。让它流走了会是根美好。

原来是脆弱的

闭上眼睛，用心去聆听您的心声

已是十一月了。两个月后我们就要迎接2014年的到来。回想起，时间真的过的很快。一眨眼就快过完了我二十二岁这一年。虽然还没有真真的过完2013年，但我很想写一下我在今年的心情是怎样的。

在2013年里是我开始人生第二阶段的开始。我在年头就把我的学生身份画个据点。在LengLeng帮我庆祝22岁生日那天，我就感觉到我已搭入了人生第二个阶段。我很清楚明白我是不会再回到学生生活了。原因是我已经放弃了念书的年头。虽然我很想念学校生活，但人总要接受事实。已经过了19年念书的生活，是时候出来赚钱养家了。

今年我生日时收到的祝福都是要我快快找个男朋友。哈哈，我的朋友们都很可爱。我知道她们都很关心我。前阵子跟许久没见面的lengleng聚会，突然间谈到了结婚。Ann Ann就说了理想结婚年龄是28岁。这也是我的理想结婚年龄，我也说了最早我可以接受是26岁。Ann Ann点下头表示她也同意我。然而她突然间说 “哎呀，很快就到了，你要快点找男朋友了，给你一年，一年好像不够，给你两年的时间快点去找男朋友”。听到这一番话，我真的很开心有怎么关心我的好友。

说真的，我已单身快4年了。心里面已经空虚到不懂怎么形容了。想要恋爱的感觉早已出现，可是就是爱不下去。近期来每当我一个人在车里回家的途中听到了情歌，我都有很想落泪的感觉。也许是因为接近年尾的关系，我变得特别的脆弱。十二月对我来说是没什么值得期待的。几个月前，我翻看了我的部落各，看回了一片文章我的泪忍不住地落下来了。之后偶尔我也会看回那片文章。

我对那份感情早已放下。但我现在发觉原来我未能放下的那时受到的伤害。我没办法不去想那时的我心里面是有多难受。我已经很努力的去克服这个痛苦。 但我真的做不到。倔强性格的我，心里面难受到快崩溃了却不允许在别人面前流泪的我，真的无法呼吸了和别人说我还难过，他们只会觉得是我放不下那段感情。感情和伤害是两回事。还难过不一定是代表还爱着对方。

你可以问我为何四年了还放不下，我可以回你有些事就算再多久，就算你是铁人也未必能做得到。很想把这份写到好好的，可是我已写不下去了。心里面的伤，用字体是表达不到的。四年了还放不下，我也很恨我自己。我不期待十二月，也不期待圣诞节。

幸福，因认识你

想一想，其实自己也还蛮厉害的。因为我对韩流的热爱，我也去学韩语。也因此认识了不少韩籍朋友。那一天突然间看见你上载的照片，我突然间回想起我们一起渡过的日子。突然间想念你。感谢你没忘记我。认识你我真的觉得很幸福。谢谢你！

p/s: 看不明韩文的读者们可以猜猜看我和那位韩籍朋友在讲着什么。嘻嘻

365 with Lunafly

Lunafly 

Last Saturday on the 12th, I went for mini concert by a group of three of talented singers from South Korea. It's none other than Lunafly. They actually came here earlier this year but I wasn't able to attend it because of something which I can't really remember. Not wanting to miss them out, I bought a ticket for RM100 during the special discount period. After that I happened to get a free ticket from my friend, a VIP ticket, so I went for it because I wanted to sing with my friends.

I don't really listen to Lunafly's songs except listening it on radio. They sing pretty well from what I heard from the radio. I prefer not to listen to their songs before the mini concert because I wanted them to captivate my heart on that day just that what Red Soul did to me last year. If you don't know who Red Soul is, please check back my old post here and how one of the member steal my heart here. 

Listening to Lunafly singing live is really amazing. They can really sing and entertain the audience very well. They need no translator because the leader, Sam can speak English very well. I actually like Teo from the beginning because oh well, I just always fall for those type of guys. To be honest, each of the members si really funny.

The crowds were calling "Yun" and Sam taught us the exact way to call Yun. For it to be sexy, we need to call, Yun~ Ah~. And this does for Teo as well. The moment where I really really fall for them is when they sing a chinese songs called 情非得已. At that moment, I just can't help falling for them. Let me tell you something. Sometimes you just can't deny that guys who can sing well and play instruments are really charming.

 M.E. Malaysia decided to brought Lunafly again in conjunction with their 1st debut anniversary. On the Oct 12th, it was their 380days. M.E. even bought them a cake to celebrate their birthday. It was so sweet of M.E. The event hall is small, it happened in Taylor's University Lakeside Campus LT20. I really prefer small venue because it is more intimate. I can see them better and they can have more interaction with the audience. 

This is Sam, the leader. He speak English well, if I am not mistaken, he is from America. And yea, he wears shades for the whole show. He is good!

This is Teo. The crowds says he is Harry Potter because of his look for the show. He admits it and even says out some lines from the movie. He also ask the audience to guess his concept for the shows and he says his concept is just "idol". And everyone broke into laughter. He even dances to entertain the crowd. He got a tissue paper with Hello Kitty packaging and he put it inside his box where the other members reveal that once a pair of socks found inside the box. He is sure a funny guy. 

Yun is very charming. He is a bit shy but that is what makes people love him more. My friends even say he resemble Seungri of Big Bang. OK, another pretty boy.

When they are back again, I will try my best to visit them again. I couldn't really sing along with them that day because I fell sick. I am glad that I attend the show despite having sore throat and fever. If I missed them, I will surely cry myself till wet my pillow. Till then, take good care and we shall meet again soon ya!

Nervous Never Stop Coming

Crayon Pop- Bar Bar Bar

So, I have finally found myself a job and will be starting on Wednesday on the 18th. The company is one where media students will really wish to work at. However, I have to say it is not my first choice, or I should say it never come in my list. My passion is always on event management and I would hopefully going to entertainment company or something sort of that. There is one that I really love to go, but their company is not in need of manpower in KL branch. So I have to give up. Just to clarify, the company I am going is a really huge company with its international base and the company is really great (good benefits for employees).

I am going to be a media planner, and honestly I am still not fully understand what I am going to do. Perhaps, I will get the hold of it when I started it. I am really nervous and worry now thinking how am I going to interact with new working environment and colleagues. I am really comfortable with the previous working place coz all young people and we communicate crazily (we are a bunch of crazy people and our jobs are just so crazy). Coming to this, it reminds me of my internship working environment. It was really hard to remember all the colleagues' names and communicate with them freely. I can only remember those in my department and I was still shy around them after being there for two months. I did got more comfortable thanks to the Christmas party. 

Anyway, I am gaining weight like a boss. Oh well, I should say the weight didn't really skyrocket, it just like 1kg. BUT!!! I have become chubbier and chubbier! OMG!!! I have got to exercise! I needa to go to gym! I am indecisive in going which gym. I can only get that allowance once I am done with probation. Oh my, help me please!! 

#D2 #Lifeofunemployed 

P/S: Oh my! I lake of formal wear and please tell me what should I wear!!

爱情这件事

爱情这件事可以很简单很开心，也可以很复杂很难过。简单开心就是我爱你你爱我，复杂难过就是有一方不爱不再爱甚至变成恨。爱情这件事并没有对与错。也不因该有后悔这两个字。我相信每个人当他们开始一段感情时，都是抱着幸福美满的心态。因为对彼此有爱有感觉才会决定要在一次。所以说为何要爱，爱了过后又要后悔和恨呢？

我经历过三段恋情。当然有快乐和幸福，还有伤心痛苦和悲哀。虽然如此，我并没有后悔过开始任何一段恋情。看过我的部落各的朋友们都因该知道我第三段恋情是令我最难忘也最难过的一个。最难忘因为我很爱他，最难过也是因为我很爱他。我难过不是因为我很他，我没恨过他。只不过我还未能完完全全的放下分手时带给我的伤害。那个感觉不是简单的能用任何字体来解释。有时候想起那时发生过的事，我还会难过。

我觉得如果要“后悔”这两个字放在爱情里的话，因该是用在后悔没有好好的爱惜一个人。人人都会说要珍惜眼前人，但我们偏偏就是不会爱惜眼前人。就这样我们不断地在爱情里找到后悔这两个字。我也有后悔过为何当初不好好珍惜某个人。但我很幸运呢！因为昨日的后悔我能在近日补偿。

我知道不是每个人都像我能够补偿昨日的后悔。我也知道不是每个人都认同我所讲的。但我很清楚明白若我们的人生里有太多的后悔的话，哪会有空间剩给快乐呢？

但我现在有面对着一个问题。我的确很渴望开始新的恋情，一直等待一个人的人出现。不知道是否一个人太久了，我的心仿佛关闭了。好像完全不会动心了。朋友问我难道我没有对任何一个人动心或者有一点点感觉嚒。我真的没有，一点点也没有。有人告许我不要急着要恋爱，还年轻。我知道，我真的知道。只不过一个人太久了，心里面会空虚。太空虚的话，我会很难过。

无论怎样,结论是爱情这件事要自己体验过才能明白我所讲的。而且每个人对爱情都有不一样的概念。我们永远无法让别人认同我们，也无法解开爱情是什么。记得只要用心去爱，就会幸福了。

告白。爱情。友情。陌生人

已近很久没更新部洛格了。这一切都是因为我开始工作了。本来很想在这里告许大家我终于找到我的第一份工作，想跟大家分享我的工作是干什么的。还没来得及写，我就要跟大家说，我要辞职了。我会做到这个月尾就停了。我只能说这份工并不是我当初想象中那么的好。我不想多讲，因为我做到不愉快。

讲到‘告白’，我想我上一次的告白大约4年前。也代表我原来已经单身了约4年。在这4年里我改变了许多。我对爱情的看法改变了。我以往的恋情都是我先主动的，可是每个都不是我希望的长远。当我决定了不要再主动，却一个机会出现了，有人鼓励我要主动，也因为我不想错过一个我珍惜的人，我就告白了。有看我部落各的读者都因该知道我的那段恋情都是分手收场。

经过那段恋情后，我不再决定到底我要主动还是被动了。我只希望我不会错过好的缘分罢了。当然我也很希望我不需要主动，希望有人跟我告白。

近来我一直跟身边的朋友说我很想恋爱，很想找个男朋友。有些朋友问我 “你不要找男朋友嚒？", "你几时要找男朋友？”，“你快点找男朋友啦”。也有人跟我说 “谈恋爱是不好的”，“找男朋友只会让自己难过”，“你还年轻，不用急”。对，22岁的我的确是还年轻，可是对一个已经4年在爱情上空虚的我，的确觉得很难受。可是因为上一段恋情，让我仿佛对男生产生了一个可疑的心。我口里是说要恋爱，可是心里却关起来了。也许我还是会怕再一次被狠狠的伤害，所以就把心锁了。我也很害怕，一个人久了，要爱一个人也难。做人真难啊~

提到友情，我觉得千万不要在友情上产生了爱情。无论是怎样的友情都好，保持友情就好。提到友情，我发觉到我有个朋友好像跟以往不一样了。我觉得我那个朋友变得不想以前的她。也许她的生活方式不一样了，但我希望我们还能保持我们的友情，永久不变。我不希望我们会慢慢变得像陌生人。

陌生人，我希望有一天一个陌生人能走近我的世界里，然后我们变得不陌生。我还在等待一个陌生人的出现。我不知道他几时会出现，可能明天，可能下个月，可能一年后，也可能永不出现。看见别那些情侣甜蜜蜜的合照，我会羡慕。我很希望照片里的女主角是我。请问男主角，你几时会出现呢？

p/s : 我有个小小的要求，我希望那个男主角能体谅我对韩流和韩星还有对Hello Kitty的热爱。
n_n

Long Awaited TVXQ Catch Me Live in KL

It has been such a long time that I finally attended a concert by my favourite act. For those who know me, you should have know that I am a hug fan of TVXQ. I am proud to be known as cassiopeia. But one things that kept make me sad was that I did not event attend their concert once though they were here twice for concert. Many people asked me why I never attend their concert as it was so awesome. I could answer you I wanted to attend desperately. However, I am not born in a family that could understand why I am willing to spend tens of ringgit for a cd album where I could get a pirated one at RM5 each, not to mention about spending hundreds of ringgit for a concert where I gained nothing. And at that time, TVXQ were here for concert when I was still in secondary school. I don't own that much of money and also transport for the concert. What I could do was waiting for news coverage on TV and newspaper for the concert.

My mum once scolded me for non-stop buying TVXQ albums. It was when I showed her a picture of the album and told her I wanna buy that. I was 16 at that time, and each time before I buy something "expensive" (by expensive I mean it's over RM50), I will tell her first as if I am getting her permission to do so. Well, you can say I am being rebellious because despite of my mum's scolding, I will still proceed in buying TVXQ albums. As time goes by, my mum already accepted that I will buy TVXQ original album as she sometimes accompany me going to Speedy or Rock Corner to have a look at those CD albums. I was once hesitating whether I should buy the Asia version or the imported from Korea version of TVXQ 1st album as the Korea version was double the price of the Asia one. Surprisingly, my mum said it's up to me to buying which one instead of asking me to buy the cheaper one. Because of this, I realized that my mum has already accepted the fact that I won't buy non-original TVXQ albums. My mum does know that I buy lots of TVXQ album, but she didn't know exactly how many I own and how much I had spent on it. If she know I bought that TONE album for RM90, I will be dead meat.

Back to story, finally TVXQ is coming for a concert after 6 years. I finally have the chance to attend it and I have the transport to the venue. I knew I will get scolded so I bought the ticket without telling any of my family members. Until it was like 5 days before the D-day, I only told them I am attending the concert. And of course I got a little lecture even though I am going for the cheapest one. Imagine if I go for rock zone!!! But then, for sure my mum know I like TVXQ very much. Although she gave me lecture on it, I knew that she cares for me very much, she just doesn't want me to spend money recklessly. She actually worried that I will get lost on the way to Shah Alam. Oh well, for TVXQ, I gotta go no matter what.

The concert started around 6.10pm. And TVXQ came on stage in white suit. Yes! Real prince charming in white appeared on stage. Oh ya, before that, I must explain that I will be talking more on U-know Yunho as he is my fav. Max Changmin is awesome too, it's just that I can't take my eyes off Yunho. I have always wanted to watch their performances of Rising Sun, Mirotic and O Jung Ban Hap without JYJ. Please don't get misunderstand, I just wanted to know how they can perform the whole song with just the two of them. And yes, TVXQ did not disappoint anyone while performing those songs. It is just so awesome. The stage still look so small to me even though there were just two of them. 

During their solo part, Yunho performed Honey Funny Bunny. And I never expected he could do those kind of dance. OMG, it's just so smexy!! I was shouting like crazy when he did that! OMG!! I became crazy again when the screen showing VCR of him giving Sulli a peck at the cheek while Before U Go was playing as the background music. Actually I wanted to watch the whole performance of Before U Go, but the performance was just so little for that song. That was the only part where I am a little bit disappointed because I love that songs very much. 

Concert won't be perfect without some cute props. Mini planes were brought on stage and TVXQ took a ride on it. The plane was supposed to bring TVXQ to the front stage and landed there, but the one that Yunho rode on experienced some technical problem and it was hanging on air while it was landing. And yes, this kid decided to jump down from the plane as it wasn't going to land at all. I was worried like mad when he jumped down. All the fans including me kept chanting "andwae" but he still jump down. Luckily he was not hurt at all.

There was a time where Yunho was running like a kid on stage. And at that moment, something just popped up in my mind. Where else can I find a more perfect man other than Yunho? He is charismatic, he has the charm to melt everyone's heart, he can be strict and fierce and yet he is cute. I love his solo dancing part where he did handstand. I knew he will do that but I din expect that he did that in that white suit. Oh my prince charming!!! By the way, Changmin is just so cute! He may be a grown up now, but deep in cassies' hearts, he is still the maknae!! Haha.

I was a bit emotional when they sang medley of their old songs and when the VCR playing footage of their old days. My friend beside me dropped her tears during that VCR. That VCR could be longer if it weren't for the split (Homin and JYJ). I hold back my tears because I don't want to be ugly duckling during the concert. I think that I should be happy as I finally attended their concert!! n_n

Fan chant for Mirotic was awesome!!! I am proud to be part of that. And I am also proud to be part of the red ocean. It was amazing! The hand held banner is meaningful! I am glad that I do not miss this concert. I fell more in love with TVXQ and Yunho now. 

WE ARE T!!!

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On another, I found an iPhone when I was about to leave the stadium. Oh well, to be exact, it was the cassies in front of me found that phone and asked whether it belongs to me or my friends. It wasn't ours and that cassies kept on asking what to do with that phone. My friends were rushing to airport and I know that cassies was also rushing. So I decided to take care of that phone and I managed to return that phone to its owner. Luckily the phone owner didn't lock her phone with password, or else I couldn't contact her on the spot. Haha, be more careful next time ya, the iPhone owner!! n_n

For all the pictures here, credit on the picture itself ya!

I ♥ Pudding.to

Do you?

Just like what you saw in the picture above, I am deeply in love with Pudding.to. Pudding.to is a fun and smart photo sharing apps (disclaimed by itself). When I mention on photo sharing app, I am sure you will think of Instagram. And yes, I use both apps for sharing my photos. 

When I got my smartphone around seven months ago, the first app that I downloaded was Pudding.to. Then only it comes to Instagram and Facebook. Some of you may know that answer, the first answer on why I play Pudding.to is because it's Korea-related (imma Korean freak). 

My profile

I treasure Pudding.to very much. I do post a lot of photos on Pudding.to but I don't just simply post like what I did on Instagram. I don't have much followers in Pudding.to but I treasure every followers and 'likes' very much. I don't follow many person too, but I love their photos to the max. And yea, most of them are Koreans.

Aside from Koreans, I love their filters very much. It is much more better than Instagram like seriously!!! And it enables me to upload photos in rectangular shapes and I can combine four photos at the same time without using other app. This is really convenient and nice. 

NO!!!!!

Yesterday, I received a sad news, a very very sad news. Pudding.to is closing on May 20. I feel like my heart being stabbed upon reading the news. OMG, I really can't believe that such an amazing app is closing down soon. They are closing due to their internal affairs and I am guessing some money-related problems. They know that many fans are using it and they will be providing us to download all the photos uploaded on Pudding.to.

I sincerely hope that they could work out their problems and relaunch Pudding.to soon. I am really in love with this photo sharing app. Please come back soon, okay?

Will be missing that notification icon.

曾经的小幸福

已经有一段时间我没用华语来写部洛格了。因为用华语的话，我需要很长的时间来写。因为我华语不好，没上过正式的课。如果你有看过我之前的文章，你就能猜到每当我用华语就代表我有点不开心。可是这一次我并没有不开心，我只是觉得用华语比较有感觉。

我相信每个人都有自己的小幸福。每个人的小幸福的定义都不同。那我曾经的小幸福又会是什么呢？嘻嘻。

友达以上 恋人未满，这就是暧昧。不知道你们有没有看过《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》。这套戏有提到暧昧是最美好的。暧昧的日子，是令人最怀念的。因为暧昧里，所有的一切都是美好的。我也很荣欣有机会体会到不一般的暧昧。

我的第一段恋情，那个暧昧的日子因该有大约半年的时间。只可惜那段恋情一个月都不到，我和他就分了。之后我遇上了我的第二段恋情。我们暧昧的时间不多，但是我们就稳稳的在一起大约八个月。如果那时我不是因为学业，如果他当时没放我走，我想我现在还会跟他在一起呢。虽然如此，我也要感谢他的放手。如今，我和他根了解彼此，也变得无法没有彼此的好朋友。我很感谢上帝让我认识了他。我会好好珍惜我们的友情。友谊万岁！！！

讲了这么久其实我要分享的小幸福，就是我的第三段恋情啦。这个美梦发生在我中三那一年。中三那一年的某一天，我还记得recess时总觉得有个人在跟着我。他敢敢的跟我要号码。我的小幸福就在那一天开始。我就称呼他为N好了。

刚开始，我并没有答应要给他我的号码。我只是跟他说我想想先。有人想认识我，我当然开心啦，可是我也要看看他是怎样的人才能跟他做朋友啊，这叫自我保护。让我很开心也很惊讶的事发生了。早上上学时，我一踏入学校的大门，他就在那里等着我，陪我走进学堂里。放学时，他也会等我，陪我走出学校。我这样大约走了一个星期，然后我告许他我没办法给他我的号码。他当然很失望，可是之后我不记得了，我们又怎样交换号码了。

就这样，我每一天早上来上学和下午放学都有人在等我和陪我走一段不超过一分钟的路程。放学后，他会sms我或打给我聊天。不知不觉，我每天都在等他的出现。有一天，上学时我没在大门里看到他。说实话，我有点失望和好奇他为何不在。然后，他突然跑过来很紧张的样子，好像怕他错过了我那样。我的确有点小开心。这样幸福的日子一直维持到那一年的12月。这样的暧昧，你们体验过吗？我曾经把这故事告许我的一个好妹妹。她说她好羡慕我，因为从来没有人这样等过她。

那暧昧停了，我们没在一起。可是，三年后我们的暧昧又继续了。没有了你等我我等你的日子，可是我们就换了另一个方式来保持属于我们的暧昧。之后，我终于不知不觉中爱上N了。我们也开花结果了。但是，长期的暧昧换来的只是两个月的恋情。在一起两个月后，我们就个走个的。他很快就放下，我却用了三年的时间来看开那段恋情。

他在两年前就找到了新欢。我也在那一刻，放下对他的留恋。我也用了两年来看开那个伤口。三年的时间虽然有点那长，可是我好了。

N先生，我要感谢你给我一个那么难忘的暧昧经验。你那时的狠心也让我长大了。我要告许你，我并没有恨过你。真的很谢谢你给过我的一切。今天开始，我会努力的只想我们曾经度过的开心回忆而不去想伤心的痛苦。希望你能和你的新欢永远开心，幸福美满，要活的开心噢！

A copycat or a follower?

L.Joe is ♥

Oh well, the picture above has nothing to do with the title. I just in love with L.Joe so much these days so I decided to post that picture up. I just can't resist in loving him. L.Joe is just so lovely. Ok I know I am CRAZY.

Back to the topic, yesterday I was quite fed up when I saw a conversation in Facebook. All the time, I have been persuading myself that that was all coincidence and nothing more than that. But considering all the 'coincidences', it is really hard to convince myself not to believe that she is following me. 

From the singer I idolized, the colour I preferred, the cartoon character that I am crazy for and the major I chose for tertiary education to the field where I wanted to work in. Can you say all these are just merely coincidence???

It is not that we grew that interest together, but all of it happened after I declared to the world that I am choosing it. AND me or the people around me and you has yet to even hear that you have interest on those things before I declared it. We don't even hear it for at least once.

I was quite angry when I saw that conversation. And luckily I got my friend to talk bout it rather than kept it in my heart. So now I am feeling better!!! But anyway, please stop following me on what I love, what mine decision is, and what I prefer!!

KTHXBAI!!!

Koreans Can Really Sing

K Pop Star 2 Top 10

Those people around me just can't understand why I love everything Korean so much. Be it in K-Pop, K-Drama, K-Culture, I just love everything Korean. Out of 10 people, 9 thought that I love those K-Pop groups so much just because of their handsome faces and kept saying all those guys are fake and they went through plastic surgery.

The thing that make me fall deeply in love with Korean singers is their multi-talent which is now hardly seen in other countries. I used to listen to Canto-pop and then I turn to Mando-pop when I got disappointed in Canto-pop. Need not to say, I slowly turn to K-Pop when Mando-pop is turning me down.

People around me kept saying that those handsome Korean guys are fake and those only appear on TV. I guess you guys are jealous of how cool those Korean guys so that's why you guys keep on lying to yourself that Korean guys are fake.

I wanted to say that not all Korean go for plastic surgery. It's just that they are really good in the art of make up and they know how to dress themselves well while maintaining their individual style. One good example I can give you is K-Pop Star. K-Pop Star is a singing competition where you compete with each other regardless of nationality, gender, language and age. If you are able to show your singing ability, you can participate in show. This year K-Pop Star has come to season 2.

I want to highlight two contestants which I really love from K-Pop Star 2 Top 10. First of them is Andrew Choi, who is a composer working for famous artist like BoA. He is the oldest participant whose now age is around 34. But he definitely can sing and his voice is just so perfect.

Andrew Choi sang DJ Got Us Fallin by Usher to qualify for Top 6. There was another purpose why he chose to sing this song. And yes, he sang this song to propose to his girlfriend, on a LIVE BROADCAST!!! OMG!!! Just click play on the video above and listen and fall in love with it.

Another contestant, or I should say this group has become everyone's favourite. They are Two Dollars (이천원). The group comprises of Kim Hyo Bin (vocalist) and Kim Il Do (rapper). It is hard to say that they are lucky or unlucky by being one of the Top 10 finalists. They have never won in any rounds but yet they managed to climb up the stairs. It is not that they lack of singing ability or what, but they are always unlucky enough to compete with really powerful competitor.

Their own arrangement of SISTAR- ALONE is just so perfect. I am in love with Hyo Bin's voice and Il Do's rap. OMG! When did Il Do become so handsome? I totally fall for him and wanted to hear him rap. Hurry and click play to watch the video. 

If you want to tell that Il Do is fake too just because he appear in TV, please shut you mouth up and go look into the mirror. I have seen these guys bare face on TV when these guys go for audition for the show. They did not go for plastic surgery. They have become so charming thanks to stylist and make up artist! THEY ARE REAL!

So to all of you who misunderstand K-Pop, please open your heart and listen first before you criticize it! I am not asking you to love K-Pop, but please don't criticize it just because you dislike or jealous of those handsome looking guys or pretty girls! 

Until then, see ya!

♥ Oh My Heartthrobs

Got this picture from Google

Please don't be surprised with the title of this post! I have yet to find another half of me, so I am still single and available. I am going to talk bout a new heartthrob of mine, and yes it refers to Korean boy band, Teen Top! All of them are my 동생!! I somehow feel so old.

Teen Top, a boyband comprises of six members which are C.A.P, Chunji, Niel, L.Joe, Ricky and Changjo. They debuted in July 2010 but they only come to my attention when they released the song No More Perfume On You (향수 뿌리지마) on 2011. I have always remember and recognize Niel because he sings the most and has an unique voice.

Then, I enjoyed listening to their new songs like Crazy (미치겠어) and Be My Girl (나랑 사귈래?). And yes, of course I can now remember all their names and recognize all their faces, just that Niel and Chunji catch my attention more. Why? All I can say is Niel and Chunji sing a lot and their screen time is longer than other members.

Now in 2013, they finally released their first regular album and their main song is Miss Right (긴 생머리 그녀). THIS SONG IS VERY ADDICTIVE!! The Korean song name means that girl with long and straight hair. I was once told by my Korean friends that most Korean guys love girl with long and straight hair (That's me!!). So this song is about that girl with long and straight hair. LOL...seems like literally translation.

Upon watching this MV, I knew that I am gonna fall deeply in love with these boys. They are so funny, funky, charming, charismatic and handsome in the MV. And yes, now L.Joe catches my attention with his bleached pink hair. The more I watched the MV, the more I love him. I love the part where he rap and deeply in love with his style in the locker room version.

With just a long sleeve black tee and a orange jumpsuit plus an orange bandana, L.Joe is just so stylish. In Chinese, we call it 型!!! I was so into them that I downloaded three different videos of them for this song. I just can't keep my eyes off on L.Joe. If I were able to date with a guy like L.Joe, how happy will I be? Too bad, he is younger than I am. Because of him, I am considering whether I should accept a guy younger than me as my boyfie. Should I? I have seen a guy in real life where he has the ability to be that cool. But then, he is younger than me as well. 

Anyway, please give much LOVE to Teen Top!! And don't steal L.Joe from me just because you fall in love with him too after watching the MV. "♥ Oh My Heartthrobs" will be a continuing series of posts on guys that make me fall in love with them. I will be blogging on other guys next time. Stay tune to see which guys steal my heart!! 

Until then, see ya! ♥

Undecided...

Yesterday, I went for my first ever job interview in my life. It was an exhibition company located about 10 minutes from my house. I was actually hope that I can get the job because it is so near to my house that I won't have to spend too much time in traffic just to go for work or back home. But after leaving the company, I have no idea why I feel a little disappointed.

The interview went smooth and I did not get asked those common questions and the unique thing was that the medium used is not English but Mandarin. It went so smooth that I almost feel like bring hired right after the interview. But soon after that, I somehow wish they will say no to me so that I have an excuse not to work in that company.

The company is much more smaller than what I expected. But that is not my main concern, but I have no idea why I hope that they will say no to me. I don't really know what I really want. What's wrong with me?

And hell yea, I dyed my pink hair to dark colour. I feel like I am changed back to the old me. I think I became a happier person since I bleached my hair. However, the moment I removed my pink hair, I have become the emo me.

Where can I find a job that allows me to have neon colour hair? 나 정말 모르겠어....

Hello 2013!!

     I promised to make a blogpost on my summer camp in Busan. But then, the post never come out at all. Why? The picture resolution is high and it takes forever to upload it to here. Yes, and I have plenty of pictures taken back in Busan. So, maybe someday, when I am free, I will make a post. So, it has been over four months since my last post. That shows how hectic I was for the past four months till I have no time to write something here. Now, I do have some time.

     I have finally put an end to my degree life. It was the last semester that I got myself a P2 for a subject. And so it dragged down my CGPA. Still, I pass the subject and the whole course. But another sad case is that I may only attend my convocation on November and this means I am only getting my certificate after nearly one year upon my graduation. I do hope that UniSA send the parchment faster and I am eligible to attend the convocation on May.

     So, Chinese New Year is now over and I started looking for job. I am looking for job at event company (the best choice will be artiste management company, if possible teehee). I am really fed up with traffic jams but the all the event companies are either located in KL are or PJ. I am really in dilemma mode now and all of the sudden, I miss the time of me being a student. Student's life is the BEST!

     So back in January, I traveled to Bangkok with Eunice and Sue Ann. It's my first oversea trip with friends. The main purpose was to shops for CNY clothes. Oh my dear, all the clothes are so cheap. I feel like wanna go there again, it's a shopping paradise!!! It was like the 6th or 7th times I have been to Thai and my 3rd time to Bangkok. Lol...so if you are looking forward for some nice scenery pictures of Bangkok, I am sorry!! Check out the photo at my Facebook

     I also bleached part of my hair and dyed it to purple. But the result is not what I expected to be. And now it has faded to pink or orange or white. Where can I find a job with my current hair colour? I also went to Skybar. It is indeed a nice place to hang out, probably for the well being one. I love the atmosphere, wine plus chit-chatting. Wanted to go there again with my other half, if only I am able to find one.

     It was on the last day of CNY, I really love the makeup done. And of course, I camwhored. It is alreadt 2am now and I need to sleep. P/S : I just got the news that I may be able to attend the convo on May 18. You know what? That is the say TVXQ coming here for concert. What a coincidence!!!

In love with the dress, but a little bit too big